Embracing Change

Embracing Change

“The only thing constant is change”…we’ve all heard the cliche.  And while I know that change is inevitable, it is often quite irresistible to fear it, enticing to resist it and tempting to control it.

My husband and I have now lived in Northern California for 6 years. Those that know us know that every year we discuss moving back East to be closer to family. We also discuss committing to staying in California and buying a home. Yet, year after year, I become overwhelmed by the fear of change, resist it and choose to stay put, resigning our rental lease and keep doing what what we’ve done before.

“If ain’t broke, don’t fix it”. I’m realizing more and more this tends to be a life motto for me – why rock the boat when everything is just fine? As I approach 37 weeks of pregnancy, I am noticing more than ever my philosophy to stick to what I now know. “I’ve got this pregnancy thing figured out – I enjoy it, I feel healthy and happy, I am still able to work and play. After 9 months of being pregnant, I’m basically an expert at it – so why change things now? Isn’t there an option to resign my baby’s lease?” Of course, just 9 months ago, I couldn’t imagine being pregnant and yet here I am completely attached to being pregnant and now can’t imagine not being pregnant. How quickly we adapt, adjust and settle in to what once felt so new. Yet, our fear tells us again and again we will never get used to something new and different.

Of course, I am excited to meet my baby girl, but with meeting her comes a whole new world and a really, really big change! One that I can not resist and have absolutely no control over! She is coming whether I am ready or not. I can prepare and plan, rest and clean…or not…either way she is coming on her own time and in her own way. She is in charge, not me.

In a way, this is actually a huge relief. I don’t have decide anything. I have even found myself less and less attached to my due date – she will come when she’s ready, all I need to do is keep breathing and enjoy the precious moments left during my first pregnancy. I choose to let go into the unexpected journey ahead and embrace the change.

Something tells me this might be a very, very helpful lesson in motherhood…

Where does resistance to change show up in your life? When do you feel tempted to control change? How have you embraced change? I would love to hear from you.



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